finally.
its over.
took so long to think about
whether it is the right thing.
whether i would unintentionally hurt him.
whether i can take it on my own from now on.
and when i was msging.
i was clenching my fist the whole time.
but after all these.
i just feel this sense of calm.
as if whatever happened didnt have an impact on me,
or maybe i have a prolonged response.
and its not coming yet.
i hope not.
exams are coming. HAIS.
and after all these,
i realised.
maybe im the only one caring after all.
im the only one worrying if im hurting him.
when its probably the other way round instead.
i have never seen such a calm reaction
to such a msg before.
its as if i didnt matter.
or never did anyway.
i didnt cry at all.
until lalamon's msg that is.
then after i regained myself.
i didnt feel anything anymore.
maybe im still numb.
or maybe my brain's reflex is to not care.
not to bother at the moment.
cause if it does.
it may hurt too much.
i should stop blogging everyday.
spend some time to mug.
to do things productively.
Jenny - Click 5
She calls me baby, then she won't call me.
Says she adores me and then ignores me.
Jenny, what's the problem?
She keeps her distance and sits on fences.
Puts up resistance and builds defenses.
Jenny, what's the problem?
You leave me hanging on the line.
Every time you change your mind.
First You say you won't, then you say you will.
You keep me hanging on, and we're not moving on.
We're standing still, Jenny. You got me on my knees.
Jenny, it's killing me.
She needs her own space. She's playing mind games.
Ends up at my place saying that she's changed.
Jenny, what's the problem?
I'm trying to read between the lines.
You got me going out of my mind.
First, you say you won't, then you say you will.
You keep me hanging on, and we're not moving on.
We're standing still, Jenny. You got me on my knees.
Jenny, it's killing me. It's killing me. It's killing me.
Jenny.
First, you say you won't, then you say you will.
You keep me hanging on, and we're not moving on.
We're standing still, Jenny. You got me on my knees.
Jenny.
First, you say you won't, then you say you will.
You keep me hanging on, and we're not moving on.
We're standing still, Jenny. You got me on my knees.
Jenny. It's killing me. It's killing me. Jenny.
